The Prelude

How do you actually start a blog? I don't really know, and before I started writing this, I figured it wouldn't really matter, but now that I am, I really wish I had thought this out.

I guess I had just figured doing this would be natural for me, I mean, I have been blogging off and on for about... 5 years? I suppose that's right. But I've never gotten a "real" blog before. I thought I never needed one. Until now. Why? I don't know, I just feel now more than ever need a place to put down my thoughts, and so many of my friends are switching to so many different social networking sites (well, mostly facebook, but, and I'm sorry to everyone for saying this, but I just can't get into facebook), I can't keep up with all of them.

That's not my only reason I'll admit, but the others I'm keeping to myself for now.

5 years? Yeah, it's a big claim, but it's true. I doubt many of you will remember, but my blogging days all started with xanga in about 7th grade. I stayed there, I continued blogging, even long after everyone left xanga for myspace. But after long enough of knowing that my blogs were never read, I decided it was time to move on to myspace. I guess I kind of stopped for a while during the myspace days, but I started up again with my "forgottenprophet" persona, and I really like what I accomplished when I wrote those blogs. I guess that was just last year, too.

Should I talk about myself? No. That's not for today. Well, maybe, but later tonight if I get the time. My story is one that needs... a long time to explain.

But what I will talk about is what I'm going to accomplish with this blog.

I guess one habit that I've had for a long time is trying to create pseudonyms for myself. Ever since my xanga days, I've been attempting to break up my personality into little bite-sized chunks. Just little isolated parts of myself, and I would try to grow them and make them into full personalities.

I don't know why I did this. Sometimes I think... that I just never liked myself. I didn't like all that I was combined together, so I tried to tear it apart. But... I don't know why. I'm still trying to sort these things out, really.

But sometimes I just think that I was trying to figure myself out. I didn't understand who I was, or how all of these interests of mine (and trust me, I have many, many interests) could all fit together and make who was me. So I broke myself up, I made these personalities and experimented with them to explore who I was and how those portions of me came to be.

But... I never got anywhere. All of these pseudonyms just made me... confused. Even more confused than I was. I never understood myself better, and I kept feeling more lost, even thought I thought I was coming closer to finding out who I was every day.

Then... one day, I was on a family vacation and I "met" Julie. And everything changed.

For those of you keeping track, yes, this is the first time I've attributed her to the change I've went through recently.

Anyway, after I met Julie, I started to make sense to myself. Started to. I'm still just beginning my search of self-discovery, but I've finally started accepting myself as who I am as one person, and I think that's a big step in figuring me out.

But anyway, this blog is going to be a combination of everything I've ever created and wanted to create. I'm going to talk about every aspect of my life. I'm going to tell you about everything I've done and want to do. I'm going to post my stupid ideas, my brilliant ideas, my funniest ideas, my deepest ideas, songs I write, recipes I create, reviews I... I already said write, but that's how you make reviews, hahaha.

This blog is going to be everything I've ever wanted, and it's a place where I'm going to be myself. Full out. And hopefully it will help me extend myself into everything I do.

Anyway, that's about it for now guys.

Tons of love, and don't forget to subscribe however you can. Hopefully I'm going to link this to as many social networking sites as I can, and that means Twitter, Facebook, hopefully Myspace, whatever; If you know what an RSS feed is, I'm going to try to set one of those up; If you have to just bookmark it and check it regularly, go for it, I don't care, whatever you need to do to keep reading.

Love and peace everyone,
Lee Rumler

--Edit--

Okay, so I've decided to make every one of these blogs downloadable! Pointless? Somewhat. But... ziddu.com runs a service that pays you based on how many people download your files, and that's pretty awesome in my opinion.

So be sure to download this blog, along with all of the others post in the future. Think of it as collecting!